I'm fine ..

I'm fine ..

everything will be fine if i take it fine ..

everything will be hard if i take it hard..

human being is just very very weird ,

the brain ,

the brilliant brain, 

that control our feelings , our's rational thinking..

we always think negatively , where goes the positive miracles ?..

we feel stress , 

we are emotional,

we love,

we hate,

we cry,

we laugh...

because we have brain ,

we are human ,

the greatest living thing ever that created by the Great One , the God.. 

thanks buddhist society in ktt, 

yesterday stress management talk really impressed me a lot ,

maybe before i feel very depressed or upset or even felt that i'm the stupiest in ktt ,

putting a lot of stress on my shoulder,

and i even fall in sick for almost two weeks , stomachache for almost three days...

somehow , i want to breakdown , i want to give up the way i had taken ..

But, after listen to brother mui han's talk and sharing ,

Yet, now i think more positively , 

having problems in bio,chem,phys or maths? 

so what? you have mouth , you have friends , you have the lecturers ..

just go ahead and request for their helps ..! 

i really want to thank chen haw , my beloved "genius" roomate.. 

he helps me a lot on my studies.. 

he taught me a lot.. 

everyday i saw him , he like very steady ..but perhaps, he have his own stress too .. 

i think i had type too long, 

30th aug will arrive soon..

my 1st ever exam in a-lvl.. in ktt.. in the jungle..

i hope that everything go fine ..

everyone can score A .. 

EVERYONE MUST FLY.. !! God blessed! 

某人又在胡思乱想，打出个乱七八糟的文章。

好久，好久了。没有为自己写一篇真正的心情日志了，不是忙，而是我真的不知道该怎么样抒发我自己心中的感觉，现在心里好乱，好久没有这种感觉了，什么事情也做不下去。

我呢？？说句老实话，我是个很自恋的人，可能是因为这样身边的朋友总是被我逗的哈哈大笑，朋友们都认为我是个大不透的人，可是人前欢笑的我，在一个人的时候总会有莫名的伤感，很希望可以有一个人可以把我给逗笑，可是这个人真的好难找啊。从小到大，在父母家人朋友的眼中，我要承担一个好孩子的包袱，虽然性格比较外向可是从没有做过一件出格的事情，我的人生似乎在沿着一个直线很顺利的进行着，可是，这是我要的吗？

我不知道，我真的不知道，因为好孩子的头衔，我活的好累，因为父母的期待，我活的好累，因为不能输的信念，我活的好累。因为我是好孩子，所以我压抑了内心所有的感情，真的很奇怪，从小到大，只要是我的好朋友，他们总是有很多的异性朋友包围着，我自己都抑郁，是我交的朋友都太有魅力吗？

哈哈，真的不懂是为什么，看着他们在恋爱中的幸福，说真的我很妒嫉，我也很羡慕，可是我不能，我不能像他们一样接受别人的感情？因为我是父母眼中的“好孩子"”所以，我隐藏起自己的感情，我很清楚很明白自己的路应该怎么走，可是或许正是因为我太明白了，所以我又很迷茫。可能我是多愁善感的吧，我天天对自己说我应该做有意义的事情，可是我做的事情或许在父母和朋友们看来很有意义，那么我自己呢？？我真的觉得那有意义吗？看着固定的轨道行驶的我就连一点出轨的可能都没有，累了，疲累了，因为那是所有人对我的期望，我到底什么时候才可以真正的为自己活呢？什么时候才可以拥有自己的幸福？

今天的心情不是很好，所以才写出这乱七八糟的话，只是想发泄一下内心的痛苦吧，希望明天会更好吧。

A nice quote..

“What is the quality of your intent?

Certain people have a way of saying things that shake us at the core. Even when the words do not seem harsh or offensive, the impact is shattering. What we could be experiencing is the intent behind the words. When we intend to do good, we do. When we intend to do harm, it happens. What each of us must come to realize is that our intent always comes through. We cannot sugarcoat the feelings in our heart of hearts. The emotion is the energy that motivates. We cannot ignore what we really want to create. We should be honest and do it the way we feel it. What we owe to ourselves and everyone around is to examine the reasons of our true intent.

My intent will be evident in the results.”

 Thurgood Marshall quotes (American Jurist and Lawyer. 1908-1993)