想，放弃了。

今天真的很失落，没什么就突然想太多。
一直以来坚持走了医学这条路也1年半了，期间不断的怀疑自己是否能够胜任这个位子。
在这件大学学到的其实很少，语言不通导致无法和病人沟通也无法正正了解病人。
教授只会不断地侮辱你，让你跌入深渊也不愿意拉你一把。
什么都要靠自己。
死背死背死背，到底要背多久。
背了，考了，就忘了。这样的我根本做不了好医生。
努力的要求当地人协助，却比我还要懒惰。
你说吧，我要怎么进步？在这里到底是不是浪费时间？我真的要继续下去吗？

当初对医学有多少兴趣，来到这里才多少时间，瞬间就化为零了。
我需要一点时间，一些事情，来重拾我对这行业的热情。

现在的我，根本只是行尸走肉。

7/12 用手机换教训之倒霉的一天。

今天真的吓到了。独自一人前往吉隆坡，结果真的出事了。我刚用不满五天的samsung galaxy s2 i9100 就被偷了！！ 事发地点于今日下午5.45pm KL SENTRAL KTM 站。 我没有责怪任何人，是我自己的疏忽所导致的。

错误1： 在当时拿出手机拨电。 
错误2：手机放口袋却没用手握住、压住。 
错误3： 挤进人潮中上火车。 


贱种就在那时候看上了我，而且我又是一个人，趁人潮夺取了我的手机。
说实话，贱种你要要手机你就拿去吧，以后不要再来打扰我了，不要再出现去伤害另一个人。请你自首不然就收手吧！！回头是岸啊，贱种。。。

好了，不想再记录这些不好的回忆。我会吸取这次的经验，时时刻刻警惕我周围的可以人物。不要往人潮去了。朋友们，若你看了这篇文章，请你也小心吧，现在的世界真的变了，人性惶恐，属于我们安乐的明天究竟在哪里？ 我祈祷我的明天会更好。 


祝大家安康。 耀。

Pre-印度 生病了 ~~~~(>_<)~~~~

昨天我终于倒下了，发烧到全身抽蓄，腰酸背痛~ 很努力告诉自己，千万别当自己是病人，这样就很快康复了。\(^o^)/YES！，我一直灌水，下面就一直出水（哈哈），让体温回复正常~今早起来，烧算是退了，但是身体还是觉得乏力，使不出个劲来。。生病后，才领悟到，人真的很脆弱，只要一个微小的细菌可能就足以夺走性命。人，无论顺境逆境，也必须努力的克服一切。在家，还有妈咪照顾我，去了印度，怎么办？ 当然必须时时刻刻照顾自己的状况，尽量不让自己生病吧。运动，是我最大的克星。但是，我会努力克服它！让运动提高自己身体的免疫力！生病，真的很痛苦，什么事情都无法完成，一直要休息，睡觉，这是一个医学生要不得的。我们必须时时刻刻都读书，不是只为了考试可以通过，而是我们的智慧，是需要实行在活生生的人身上的！所以，医生，不是开玩笑的，呵呵。昨天，从学姐口中得知我将在八月十号飞往印度，心情算是轻松了许多，至少我可以待在马来西亚多2个星期~ 我会更珍惜这些时间。但是，现在就是必须努力养好我的病，再出发！ B+ always =) 

1/7之旅-法国村vs日本村~

Yeah , 终于可以不用待在家里了！O(∩_∩)O哈哈~ 今天和家人一起开车去“法国和日本” (⊙o⊙)哦！如果不知道的朋友，让我告诉你，在马来西亚也有法国主题和日本主题的度假村哦。。它们坐落在BUKIT TINGGI,PAHANG。。只是比云顶在远一些些而已哦。。。其实本来这个旅途应该不成的。怎知道一个心血来潮说去就去了。。(*^__^*) 嘻嘻……大概早晨11.30分出门，抵达也该1点中午了。。我以为会像云顶那样冷，怎么知道= =Oh my my..真是热~ 而且还要走各式各样的斜坡。。。哈哈，也算是一种健康的旅途吧XD。。 我们驾车抵达法国村，然后乘搭当地的shuttle " mini lorry" 去到日本村~ 那里有一个botanical garden， 有很多鲜艳又独特的花草~ 也有日本人的建筑~ 很是特别~之后就回到法国村那里参观参观~ (⊙o⊙)…，我想用言语很难形容~ 所以还是等照片吧，照片还在处理当中，本人很累，先睡了。。~ O(∩_∩)O哈哈~ 

Pre-印度之纠结的心情（一）

已经已经很久没有Update了。我答应自己一定要常常来记录自己的故事，虽然我不是一个什么伟人，但是，每个人都有属于他的故事，他的地方。从KI落幕至今，已经快一个月了。那些日子真的让我学到了很多，认识了更多的人。要学习三种语言，说难也不难，说易也不易。但是至少我也掌握了不少基础，相信应该可以在印度派上用场~\(≧▽≦)/~啦啦啦~更让我意想不到的是我竟然可以得到best in tamil 。。这简直是个意外啦。。哈哈哈~说实在的，我很享受KI的日子，周末可以和家人聚聚，平时也可以看到朋友们。这种生活真的求之不得啊~但是，KI结束后，朋友也各自回家乡了。因为和家人相处的时间，已经开始在倒数了。。24号了，如果要倒数，可以说，只剩一个月了。还有一个月，我就要离乡背井，飞往一个我完全陌生的国度，去求知识，去学习独立，走出我一直站在的圈圈里，体验另一种生活。最近，我开始失眠了。突如其来的醒悟，提醒着我：“帅哥，你在这里的时间不多了，你还要无所事事去倒数你离开的日子？”对\(^o^)/YES！，我真的不能这样子了，我开始会整理自己的房间，把不要的废物都丢掉，也意味着，我要一个全新的我。说，是简单不过了。做，还是有待加强啦~ 每天和家人相处的时间是珍贵到我无法用言语来形容。虽然我大部分的时间都是一个人独守这个家，一个人看着四面墙发呆。我埋怨过，我失落过，但是，我更懂得，这些日子不久就不会再有了。其实，可以这样呆在家，等待家人们归来的感觉是幸福的。我知道，你们只是不愿意表现出来，不愿意提醒，其实我去印度的日子越来越近了。可是我们还能逃避多久呢？不论我们多不想去想，多不想去面对，时间到了，我们还是必须接受。人生就是这样的。

开始放假到现在，其实我也享用过不少美食，我知道这些都不可能在印度可以享用到的~在这里就PO上一些和你们分享吧~ 流口水~~~

batu pahat's cendol ~ 料多价廉~

malacca's 萝卜糕~

鸡饭粒~

鸳鸯猪扒XDD 超爱吃 的！

芝士饭~好好吃哦~\(^o^)/~

Nadeje 千层蛋糕啦~ 是不错的~

好啦，其实还有很多照片的，大家有兴趣就前往一下小弟的非死不可FB专业吧~

小弟专属Instagram图图连接

看到这些食物图图，真的有点饿了。。O(∩_∩)O哈哈~相信以后在印度很难找到吧~ /(ㄒoㄒ)/~~ 但是没关系，小弟我发现一样印度肯定会有的食物，而且也不错吃的~ 上图~~~

奬奬~就是芝士NAAAAMMMMMMM！ 

这代表着我以后在印度吃这个就好了嘛？！不行啦~这样会营养不足。。还怎样读医？O(∩_∩)O哈哈~我第一次吃就被它吸引了~推荐推荐。~ 怎么我好像开始离体了，(⊙o⊙)…额~ 其实介绍这些食物，我变得更纠结了。~ 这些都还算其次，去到印度，再也没有妈妈煮的饭了~ 想到这里，真的是泪奔啊~~~o(>_<)o ~~ 阅读了这篇，觉得自己真的很词穷= =！ OM~ 真的必须看多点中文书了。。加强了之后再继续写吧~ 结论： 我还是不想离开马来西亚！ 因为这里有我最爱的家人，有我最爱的朋友，有我最爱吃的食物，是我的避风港！！ 哈哈哈哈~ 闪！

複雜的心情記載（三）

距離KI課程畢業已經剩下最後的兩個星期了，也就代表說，能和學院的朋友們相聚的日子也漸漸減少，也越來越短暫了。心中可說是充滿許多的不捨。也正因如此，我變得更珍惜我們大家之間相處的日子。雖然過後大家都各奔前程，通往不同的大學讀醫。但是，回憶往往還是我們這些醫學系的學生需要的推動力吧。朋友，請把握還能一起相處的時間吧。讓我們一起把剩下的兩個星期，畫上完美的據點吧。HINDI NIGHT! 我們一定要ROCK AND ROLL!! =） 加油！

心情記載（二）

就在昨晚，因為一時的“貪”念。下載了一個遊戲軟件，導致我剛買不久的筆記就這樣“中毒”了！懊惱的我不知所措，殺毒殺到半夜，也沒見被我殺光！就在今早，狠心一下，直接重置筆記回原廠設定了。。目前還在走著，真的希望這樣就可以100%消滅所有病毒！拜託拜託！ T.T 大家也來為我祈禱吧！千萬要讓那個置毒進去那個軟件的畜生不得好死！我討厭這種！T.T 我好像很毒哦，但是沒辦法T.T 自我安慰Ing~~ 

心情記載（一）

今天，不知道自己到底怎麼了，心情很悶，很暴躁。我想應該是因為我腳上的那個惡魔吧。自從回去KTT上KI，才進去不到2個星期，我的腳那裡就生了一個圈圈的怪東西。我很怕，怕是HERPES ZOSTER，所以就立刻就醫。還好醫生說只是tinea。但是我也很驚訝。我想，我每天都有換內褲，洗澡。怎麼可能會因為骯髒而得到這種病。我想應該是天氣熱，加上宿舍房間也熱到半死，早晨起床就是汗流浹背的關係所以帶這樣吧。但是我也乖乖的吃藥，塗藥。也大概過了2個星期，也漸漸好了。但是，今天不知道怎麼了，那個圈圈的地方又長出了一粒粒惡魔。我很擔心，怕又要再痛苦了。我不想要每天以奇怪的姿勢上下課，我真的受够了。但是，我除了吃藥，塗藥，更加的注重乾淨之外，我真的不知道我還能做什麽了。我只能祈禱，祈求菩薩可以幫助弟子順順利利度過這關。阿彌陀佛 _/\_

A message for chen haw =!

just in : http://raleighborneo.blogspot.com/

the above photo described all ...just hope chen haw can saw it ..=) if you wanna give him some moral support too,just click the website above and drop him a comment !! and and, if you guys have any words wanna to send to him, tell me because i'm going to write letter to him during our KI ! =)

source: http://raleighborneo.blogspot.com/ =) 

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A post in this hot afternoon

Some new features i done to my blog.Maybe not that nice but i like it. Now will stop writing blog because this week only have one word can describe my feeling that is nervous.Finally i can count my time, counting the time to 23rd Jan , most of you will think , yeah, is Cny! but for most of the A-level student that took their A2 exam on oct/nov 2011, 23rd Jan is a big day for us.

Pavilion [ grabs the limited goodies]

On the 13th jan , i went to pavilion with my childhood friend.We went by RapidKL U6 and followed by monorail.Firstly, we went to Sg.Wang to have our lunch.*jiangjiang*, we visited to T-bowls..

Afterward, we walked to Pavilion and took some photos of the United Bears!

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15/6 first flight to Sabah, Excited..

my first day lunch~

Just because it was the 1st time ever in my life taking an airplane,i was pretty excited and went to LCCT 2 hours earlier before the flight time.I reached LCCT around 8.20a.m and my flight was on 10.20a.m.When i met chen haw there, he told me that we can check in even before 45mins of the flight.I was like, oh my goodness! If he can told me earlier, i woudn't had to wake up so early and suffered from traffic jam during the working hours! LOL...Emm..just ignore about the flight part..We reached Kota Kinabalu Terminal,Sabah at around 12.50p.m.We met Alan there and we took a van which is from skyland adventure company to Kinabalu National park.This road trip cost us total Rm450.There were six of us so each of us only had to pay Rm75. It was quite cheap because the way to the park is quite tough.We have our first lunch in Sabah ,near inanam..They eat duck rice (direct translate from chinese ..lol)and i ate pork mee..it taste good! After lunch and bought some stuff at petronas, we continue our journey to the park..On the way, we dropped by at nabalu town , a small town which have sell souvenir and some nice view to have some nice shots.~~

After some "shopping " at the shop, we continue our journey to the park..We reached the park around 3 something and we paid for the entrance ticket which is RM3 per pax.We settled down in Grace hostel which where we going to have our last night "nice" sleep before starting the climb..We have our first buffet style dinner at Balsam cafe and we enjoyed these day..Again, i'm was super excited for the climb next day.. =)

Finally it's OVER!

Today ,finally my AS examination is finished! and guess what? holiday is in da house !
Although i know i did not very well in my exam , but i have put all my effort in. Now, what i can do is just pray for getting all As in my exam!! Okay, forget about exam. what i really excited about is one more week , just one more week i going to climb the highest mountain in Sabah! MT.kinabalu!! wooohooo..~
There's still a lot of thing i have to prepare and pack for this trip!
 In this exam months, there were a lot of "interesting" incident happen on me ..
first of all , i want to apologize to my dearest roomate chen haw.I know my words may hurt you , but those are things that i really can't take it anymore, i just hope you can understand me.I promise if anything happen again i sure i will tell you. .. for woel haur, sorry i make you disappointed on me. my attitude really have problems. i think you will be with me and watch for my changes , okay ? anyway, any quarrels that happened to us did make our relationship more tightly bound together! i really happy that i have you guys with me along this road ! last but not least , now is holidays ! let us enjoy it to the fullest!

MT.KINABALU !! WAIT ME , I'M COMING!!

G.y-8th June 2011.

BEH SONG POST..~

BEH SONG ... 

Just a post to motivate myself.

Finally, i got my pre-AS examination results, and it was totally disappointed me , my friends and my family.I weaken by those results.My friends keep comfort me and encourage me not to give up,but i still in the state of giving up myself.I know i shouldn't,i know i should improve myself, change those weakness into my strength.But it seem like my attitude really concur all over my brain , affecting my thinking, thus weaken my body.From now on, it just left not more than 14 days.The real AS examination is just around the corner.Guess what? i'm still haven't finish revise all the four subjects.Everyone is buried their head in the books but i'm still loose myself, giving lots of reasons not to study.OMG,i really a failure.Everytime i promised myself to improve myself, it seem meaningless.I simply hope that i can get all A in my exam,clear the cut off points and fly to India to continue my study.I don't want to stop in the middle.I don't want to make those that love me disappointed on me.I don't want to be the one who left behind.So, God ,please lend me Your strength to push myself forward.And to all my friends, wish you guys can get very good results.I promised i will see you guys at India next year! Yee Yew, keep going ! Don't ever look back! You can do it !! Trust the one inside yourself, if you believe it, you can do it!

“Failure will never overtake me if my determination to succeed is strong enough.”“Strength does not come from winning. Your struggles develop your strengths. When you go through hardships and decide not to surrender, that is strength.”

random post..

it's been a long time i didn't touch my blog.. whoops..do you miss me , my dear blog?.. finally two weeks of my pre-AS examination had ended..this two weeks i really suffered in study.. sleep less, play less, but one thing is i eat more..i think this is because of i used my brain too much.. causing severe hungry symptoms ... after this two weeks of exams, i encountered a lot of things.. i spot out my weakness in every subjects.. it's time for me to focus 100% in my study since the real AS examination is just one month to go.. !! okay.. done- -i don't want to write more.. going bath..huhu.. see ya..=)