Saturday 22 May 2010

The To-be-forgotten

The To-be-forgotten

I
            I heard a small sad sound,
And stood awhile among the tombs around:
"Wherefore, old friends," said I, "are you distrest,
            Now, screened from life's unrest?"

II
            —"O not at being here;
But that our future second death is near;
When, with the living, memory of us numbs,
            And blank oblivion comes!

III
            "These, our sped ancestry,
Lie here embraced by deeper death than we;
Nor shape nor thought of theirs can you descry
            With keenest backward eye.

IV
            "They count as quite forgot;
They are as men who have existed not;
Theirs is a loss past loss of fitful breath;
            It is the second death.

V
            "We here, as yet, each day
Are blest with dear recall; as yet, can say
We hold in some soul loved continuance
            Of shape and voice and glance.

VI
            "But what has been will be —
First memory, then oblivion's swallowing sea;
Like men foregone, shall we merge into those
            Whose story no one knows.

VII
            "For which of us could hope
To show in life that world-awakening scope
Granted the few whose memory none lets die,
            But all men magnify?

VIII
            "We were but Fortune's sport;
Things true, things lovely, things of good report
We neither shunned nor sought ... We see our bourne,
            And seeing it we mourn."

A dream

A Dream

In visions of the dark night
       I have dreamed of joy departed—
But a waking dream of life and light
       Hath left me broken-hearted.

Ah! what is not a dream by day
       To him whose eyes are cast
On things around him with a ray
       Turned back upon the past?

That holy dream—that holy dream,
       While all the world were chiding,
Hath cheered me as a lovely beam
       A lonely spirit guiding.

What though that light, thro' storm and night,
       So trembled from afar—
What could there be more purely bright
   In Truth's day-star?

Friday 21 May 2010

The rise of the DESPAIR..

Finally , today JPA scholarship was out at sharp 3:55pm..
Like usual,the website was jammed and hard to access..
But yet , i knew my result , the result that i don't wish to see.. 
yeah..that's it .. 
can't get.. 
truly disappointed..
can't get petronas,simedarby,ytn,ytm,matrix,and jpa..
got upu but not my 1st choice ..
why ? why got straight As also useless.. 
that make me feel like why struggle hard to get something but at last also nothing.. 

ya.. now that is it.. 
so ? continue form 6? 
yes..i think.. life must continue.. but yet, let me take so time to recover from this .. 

Thanks my family who support me from JPA application,PPKSD , until now..
Thanks my friends who wish me good luck and so on.. 
THanks..

** I "LOVE"JPA, I "LOVE "MALAYSIA . MORE "LOVE " ONE MALAYSIA !! ( SO IRONICALY)


Keputusan Permohonan

  •       Jabatan ini telah mempertimbangkan dengan saksama permohonan saudara/saudari untuk mendapatkan
  •       Biasiswa Persekutuan bagi melanjutkan pengajian ke luar negara di bawah Program Ijazah Luar Negara
  •       (PILN) 2010. Berikutan bilangan tempat yang terhad (1,500) berbanding bilangan calon cemerlang yang
  •       memohon, (10,900) JPA tidak dapat menawarkan penajaan kepada saudara/saudari untuk pengajian
  •       ke luar negara.
  •       Walaubagaimanapun, permohonan saudara/saudari masih dalam pertimbangan Jabatan ini untuk Program
  •       Ijazah Dalam Negara (IPTA / IPTS).

  •       Sekian, terima kasih.
  •       Bahagian Pembangunan Modal Insan
  •       Jabatan Perkhidmatan Awam Malaysia

Thursday 20 May 2010

I WANT JPA PILN SCHOLARSHIP SO BADLY..

I WANT JPA PILN SCHOLARSHIP SO BADLY.. RESULT IS GOING TO COME OUT TOMORROW EVENING.. OMG. OMG.. ~ INSOMNIA TONIGHT  = ='''

REALLY REALLY REALLY HOPE THAT I CAN GET THIS SCHOLARSHIP.. 
PLEASE GOD , PLEASE.. 

Tuesday 11 May 2010

The road not taken .

The road not taken .
if i didn't mistaken , that one of the form 4's poem.
there always be a lot of road , diverging from a place to many others place.
we have to make a decision or choice in our life 
maybe we choose the one that seldom choose by others 
maybe we just follow those foot's steps 


however , we need to convince ourself on the way we chosen
dare to take challenge 
we have to 
we must to
put our all effort towards success
be responsible to what you had choose


Now, i'm currently enter pre-U 16 as an form six student..
today is the 2nd day
but i still like sitting on a "sampan" 
don't know whether i should continue form six or back to the river bank 


But, anyway , i still in the hope to survive in jpa scholarship that will annouce soon maybe this week or next week.. 
Hopefully i can get jpa scholarship 
Hopefully i can study oeverseas
Hopefully i can become a good doctor
But yet 
work for it ! >_<

Thursday 6 May 2010

”Dilema" in my way..

Yes it is the 6th day of May finally , just left 4days more to register form six.
Yes i will go register because form six start classes after the mid-term holidays.
But i , don't know how to express out , i dislike form six , some more the school i got is Seksyen 16,Shah Alam. That makes me more "hate" form six. 
But , how ? My family finance really really can't afford for those A-level .
 i really don't want to be a burden for my family anymore. 
maybe study form six also a right choice.


Many people suggested me not to do stpm , because it is tougher than other .
But, for me , that's equal.
Study always been hard for all student , except for those so called "genius" but not me.
Although out there have a lot of loan that  i can apply to continue persue my a-lvl and futher studies 
But, how about the debt afterward ? 
Until now still waiting for JPA scholarship 
if get , will i go ? bonded by the government 10 years.
if fail to get , stpm ? a -lvl ? 


Really need to make a decision that would change my entire life ..
Can somebody help me ? 
Nope, the only people that can help me is myself . 


Regards,
George
2010-5-5

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